She sat on the bed, their bed, her face buried into her knees. The echoes of her long-silent sobs, hung in the air. A gush of cold wind made its way through the one open window and kissed her tear stained face, bringing with it the memories of that fine spring day, not too long ago.
He had gone down on one knee, as he sang 'I love you till the end' by The Pogues, in an awfully pitchy voice. She had cried tears of joy as he made her live her idea of a perfect proposal that she had told him, the first time they had met in the college cafeteria.
She had leaned forward and kissed him with all the love she had for him as she accepted.
And then her thoughts reverted to that dreaded day. The sight of him hanging at the edge of the cliff, as they waited for help to arrive, still made her flinch.
It made her sad that she didn't insist upon calling off the trek even though she didn't have a good feeling about it. She was angry with herself for not having been more careful. She regretted that she didn't tell him she loved him, often enough. She hated how the last memory of him alive that she had was him covered in blood, as he fought to hang on.
She had lost him that day. He had left her alone in this cruel world, to face all of it by herself, without his hand to hold, without his words to comfort her, without his arms to protect her, without his love to make her heart beat.
Her life had no meaning anymore. Her insides were numb. She was barely alive.
She was about to break into fresh bouts of tears, when miraculously enough, her phone burst into music, as those bitter-sweet words surrounded her, "I just wanna be there when the morning light explodes, on your face it radiates, I cant escape, I love you till the end."
She squeezed her eyes shut and breathed him in the air. He was still watching over her...
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